Saturday 5 September 2015

A Christmas Eve Miracle Restores A Crippled Life - CBN.com

NOTHING is too big for Him. Healing can be one big miraculous event like this video or it can be a process or journey.
He has been having me walk out my freedom with Him and it has been good.




Wednesday 11 February 2015

Clinging to these truths!

One of the great theologians debate is whether or not it is Jesus' will to heal the sick.

I am believing it is, but the enemy does not want us to be free! He comes to kill, steal and destroy. I believe everything in our lives is much more spiritual than we might think…..including illnesses, oppression and so on. He wants to stop us from having a strong faith by feeding us doubt,  or entering in when we are weak or have dealt with any level of trauma. We can then develop strongholds which keep us from God's truth.
Definition of a stronghold is a lie the enemy feeds us, that keeps us from giving Jesus the very thing we need freedom of.
A common example is if I hand over my fear, then God will certainly give me the very thing I am fearful of, or if I surrender my children to Jesus then he will take them. These are lie based beliefs the enemy preys on to keep us from freedom. 

I am working hard at handing over EVERY area of my life to Him. It is hard and scary…..but I have to remember that He is a good God. He promises to give us a hope and a future. The enemy wants to steal our hope and future so it probably comes down to who we are going to believe.

"The holy spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control."
Galatians 5:22-23 NLT

Joy and Peace are the opposite of depression, despair, fear. 
I have to believe God's word, not the one who comes to kill, steal and destroy. The patience is the hard part. 
Another scripture that is great for me is,

"God does not give me a spirit of fear, but of power, and love and a sound mind."
This is His word, so although I am experiencing symptoms and it is true that I am, it is not THE TRUTH. His word is truth.

I think a large number of Christians think "Well, I know God can heal, but He probably won't"
This is not faith. Faith requires belief in a God that can and will deliver on his promises. There are tons of scriptures that state God wants to heal us, free us from bondage and that if our hearts are aligned with His that whatever we pray for He will give us, but I think this requires BOLD faith in todays world. I have been guilty of reading scripture as words, not emphasizing the power and life in his words.

Then Jesus told them, I tell you the truth, if you have faith and don't doubt, you can do all things like this and much more. You can even say to this mountain, "May you be lifted up and thrown into the sea; and it will happen."
Matthew 21:21 NLT
We read these, but do we believe it? I know I struggle with doubt, but day by day I am working on my faith.

I understand there are difference opinions in theology and that some will not agree with me , and of course that is ok.  I am choosing the theory that contains more hope.

A prayer made in faith will heal the sick, and the Lord will make you well. And if you have committed any sins, you will be forgiven.
JAMES 5:15 NLT

He was pierced for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; upon Him was the Chastisement that brought us peace, and with His wounds we are healed.
1 PETER 2:24

Iniquities is sickness. If Jesus is the same today, yesterday and tomm then I am choosing to believe he wants to heal me.

For I will restore health to you, and your wounds I will heal; declares the Lord.
Jeremiah 30:17 

So with this I am boldly clinging to the belief that the Lord is going to heal me, and I am trying to rest in Him and surrender it all regardless. It's hard, but this is where I am at.



Monday 2 February 2015

Today is a good day:)

Hi friends,
I just wanted to update you since the last blog post.
Since yesterday I have been feeling much better. I am encouraged that our God is working in me.
Relying completely on Him is a new thing for me, and I have a ways to go…but I am surrendering more and more of myself to Him.
I am sure I have a journey ahead, but it is encouraging  to see breakthrough….something I have not had before unless going the western medical way.

I have been facing issues with my Dad that I thought had little bearing in my life, but I am realizing it probably effected me more than I know. I definitely did not have a typical father/daughter relationship….far from it. I forgive him, always have, but it is also time to deal with the little girl who was hurt by her father. Fortunately not sexually, but emotionally and somewhat physically.

Jesus is helping me with bringing up layers of my past that are undealt with, and I praise Him for that.  I believe he is also helping me find the right supplements etc to assist in healing my body.
Our God is an awesome God.


Thank-you for fighting for me Lord.

Saturday 31 January 2015

Fear AND Hope

FEAR.
It is amazing how such a little four letter word can have so much power over my life.
I am afraid. Afraid I will have to live the majority or a high ratio of my life in this black pit.
Afraid that my symptoms are unfixable. Afraid of having no control. Afraid of time. Afraid of my heart turning cold towards God. Afraid for my son. Afraid of the many years ahead. I am angry that I have been put in a place where the solutions seem slim. I feel envious of others who are Free.
I feel Stuck. Pathetic. Needy. Weak. Confused.
It is hard not to self-pity and I have to try hard not to now, BUT....

I am learning to love God in the suffering. Learning to declare that He is good despite the torture and darkness I feel day in and day out. I am learning to trust him. I am learning to have Faith that He is healing me. Learning that with Him, all things are possible.

I am learning to let go of the person that I want to be...the anger that with these symptoms I don't have the opportunity to be the me I want to be. Realizing that this is an entitlement attitude. I am accepting that I may not be the wife, mother, friend that I had hoped for, but I am still enough for Him. His love is not conditional as ours is.
I am learning that He loves me, and that is enough. I don't need approval from others. I am dying to self more and starting to allow the me He wills for me to manifest. He is helping me take my shame to the cross, and giving me more humility to not be ashamed over what I can't control anymore.
I am learning to like myself despite the weaknesses these "symptoms" bring. I am learning to face my fears and allow the despair and panic to surface so that I can release repressed emotions. I am learning to fight the battle from a resting place.
Most of all, I am learning to have Faith. Faith in a God who wants the best for me, and who is healing me despite what I am feeling and what the enemy is throwing at me.

This is all a learning process of course and I let doubt fill my mind at times, but I am holding on to God's truth and hope as much as I possibly can....and starting to believe that His Word is for ALL, and that He fulfills his Promises to all, its not dependant on diagnoses.

God has been helping me bring up layers of my childhood that need to be dealt with. Although my adult self doesn't feel that it is affecting me, it is still likely stored in my body and sub conscience.
Together with a Christian counsellor we are going through the layers, so my symptoms have been up and down as things in my sub conscience are being stirred up.

"But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed."
Isaiah 53:5

It is amazing that our Jesus CHOSE to do this for us!!